Back at the tail end of 2016 I joined Pinterest. I can't remember why or what prompted me to, but I did. Now, in 2017, I'm not quite an addict, but could be if time permitted! I started getting some pins in my feed about positive thinking, angel cards, mindfulness etc... Now I am not so naive as to not be aware how algorithms and cookies control what we see on various websites, but hey if we now use the internet as a means of communication, why shouldn't our spirit guides?!
It was a pin on Pinterest that got me into writing a gratitude journal each night. It was Pinterest that inspired me to include arts and crafts in my English lessons. It was Pinterest that inspired my Christmas decorations in 2016. And now it is Pinterest that is helping me through this crappy period of my life (that and my lovely friends and family!)
A few weeks after John's funeral I decided to "cleanse" the house, my daughter's room was up first and had been clogged up with the various "stuff" repatriated from her father's house. I was just finishing and being badgered by my teenage twins as to when their hollow legs were going to be filled, when for some unknown reason I had a mind to re-arrange the bookshelf (you know? The way you do! ;-))
On the bottom shelf I found a book by the author Doreen Virtue Ph.D, Entitled The Lightworker's Way, I picked it up and wondered when I bought it and why hadn't I read it? The name Doreen Virtue was somehow familiar, and it dawned on me that it was her cards that were coming into my Pinterest feed everyday. The book was from 2003 so I must have purchased it prior to moving out to France, and by the look of the spine and its lack of creasing, I hadn't read it either. I considered, and still consider this, as a sign. A sign to wake up and realise that life is so much more than what I had and have. Not more materially (but hey I'm not about to complain if my bank account grows) but spiritually. This is a pivotal moment in my life, a crossroads, I can blindly go on as before, or I can get my shit together and strike a path in a different direction. I've chosen the latter, because the former isn't an option any more.
I'm just like you, struggling to come to terms with life and everything it throws at you!